Today was an extremely exciting day. I woke up early which is a big step for me. It was rainy and gloomy and sleeping in sounded great but i got out of my bed anyway. The first excting thing was that I woke up before my mum (she was up very early to pray then went back to sleep so that doesn’t count). She found me in the kitchen cleaning up and making tea. We had breakfast together watching a cheesy hallmark movie all covered up on the sofas. See i said it was a great day. I decided to have a nice moment of devotion before I went on with the day and that’s when God started to speak into my heart.
Wounds are painful and no one likes to deal with them. We all prefer the one time antiseptic cleanse and band-aid cover until it fails to heal or worse gets infected. Each experience in our life affects us and just because we ‘erased it’ from our memory doesn’t mean it didn’t leave a scar. If Joseph was not sold into Egypt his family would have starved to death when the drought came. Another way to look at it is; if Joseph did not survive the prison his family would have died too. Everything that comes your way has gone through God’s scale (that is if you have surrendered your life to Him) that is why He says He doesn’t try us beyond what we can handle . Just because someone abused you and defiled the very altar of God which is you, doesn’t mean that that’s all your story is about. As soon as you start talking of how God brought you through the pain and made you victorious (Joseph’s testimony in prison) God will raise you from one level of glory to the next and everyone else around you.(God will cause pharaoh to hear about you and set you free from prison and will rescue the cupbearer with you too)
I’ve come to realise that we all embrace the illusion of perfection. The most troubled place is the church but it’s also the place with most smiles. We walk this journey of salvation like models in a runway , broad smiles and shoulders high. Most of us are broken, wounded, bitter and even angry but we are too worried about image to show vulnerability . God cannot work through you if you feel perfect. God waited till David fell on his knees asking for forgiveness to start the next chapter with him. All God wants is you to declare you are nothing without Him and He will take you to heights unknown . You don’t need to fear shame because God promises to bear it for you so allow Him to expose your wounds as He heals them. Be a living testimony. Allow God to set people free from your life story.
So at this point I was already in tears because God was dealing with me at a very personal level. I changed my site to a public yet personal journal because if my life is the key to your blessings so be it. Am not perfect but God has always been faithful enough to show me abundance of grace. Am a coat of many colors and you may not understand all of me but pick a color tha resonates with you and walk this journey of life with me. Tears are inevitable but so is laughter so as much as i promise to make you cry, seeing smiles is unavoidable .