A while back my dad, brother and I went to a conference. I was to be in the worship team and so I travelled a day before them to catch up with rehearsals and stuff. One I was so tiered because I caught my flight right after work and two I was so worried because I was about to work with a team of strangers for a whole week. This was a great opportunity for me but I was not excited about it, I was actually dreading it. Was I going to dress as expected? were they going to like me? would I sound right or would I just freeze up when the moment came? All these questions got me so riled up that I was just on edge. I couldn’t even sleep in my flight and this time not because I was scared but worry kept me up. By the time my flight landed I was more tiered because my brain was overworking and my body was just worn out but I had to make it for the rehearsals in an hour. I stood in the middle of the noisy airport and started praying and I asked God for one thing a SURPRISE!! I put on my earphones and started worshipping God because if all went bad I wanted to have something to hold on to. When my hotel shuttle arrived the driver was just a ray of sunshine, he was so hilarious and had me cracking in no time. We made small talk about the weather and every simple thing strangers would talk about but by the time I got to the hotel I was in a totally different mood and ready to conquer a few more hours before sleep. I checked in and as I walked to the elevator one of the team leaders was coming out of it. I knew her from all the communications we had had before this day but she had no idea who I was. Out of the blue this wonderful lady walked up to me and just embraced me as if we were friends who had not seen each other in ages and then she smiled and said welcome and she walked away. I raced into the elevator and my heart was racing from joy and wonder. I freshened up then sat down on my bed and asked God to help me out because I was about to go meet close to fifty strangers who may or may not like me. I never even know I cared what people thought about me until this time. Funny how God uses such moments to show us our weak points. I walked into the hall we were supposed to meet and the technical team was still working to get the sound system up and running. I saw the lady I had met standing at corner with so I decided to go introduce myself . The four ladies were all so nice and in a few minutes we were deep into stories I was at peace and it felt like I had made friends. This was different for me because I am not used to people being selflessly nice apart from my family so this whole thing was so foreign. I am definitely a talkative woman but only my family and friends bring out this side of me but with everyone else I am reserved that some would label me antisocial. I looked at my watch and it was two hours already and more people had come but everyone was good. We decided to have dinner before anything and one lady readily wanted to go with me. By this time I was already too suspicious of everyone for being too nice that I started making excuses of not going with her but she was having none of that. We went to dinner and conversation flowed with so much ease that by the time it was over I was convinced that she was indeed a nice person. When rehearsal started I was too overwhelmed by all this, that it was all a blur (I was probably singing like a strangled cow but I was beyond caring)
The next day I decided to wait and see if the first day was just pretense only to find it was just a taste. These people were so good that I found myself wanting to just be around them and get ‘infected’ with this goodness. Day two of the conference I was so overwhelmed by how God had decided to SURPRISE me. Tears were flowing all day because God had just shown me that people would be nice without expecting anything in return. That in these world there are people who are good just because. I cried when we were praying, I cried when people smiled at me and worse I cried when they all complimented how beautiful I was or how well I did my make up( thank God for waterproof make up) Thank God for the Holy Spirit because I think everyone thought I was just so drowned in God’s presence that’s why I was crying. Yes by the end of the week I just wanted to pack this bunch of people and take them home!!! That sounds like a scene that would fit in criminal minds so I refrained myself from it. A group that prays for you and with you, laughs with you and makes you laugh, bring out the beauty and glow from deep within you is more than I had asked from God but He indeed surprised me. This reminds me of Sinach’s song He did it again she says; “I am counting my blessings. I can’t keep it to myself, when I thought He had done too much, ooh, Jesus did it again.” This is the song I am dancing to because God indeed went beyond what I even asked for. I even shared meals with them and considering how wiered i get about food (only foodies like me get this) I was very okay with it.
I learned two things in this experience. One not everyone is a vampire ready to suck your blood(I hope you have that image in your head, you’ll need it) When you fail to trust people because someone hurt you or just because you have trust issues you miss on opportunities and connections because you are too busy trying to miss non existent bullets. I would not have had the extent of breakthrough I had in that conference if I allowed my already existing walls to stay in place. I know people say trust is earned but my new view is trust is offered until someone proves otherwise. Two, just when you think you have yourself figured out God will expose your weak points so as to strengthen you. God is consistent but He is also progressive and He demands the same from us. He wants us to grow and become better. When God lets you into a vulnerable situation instead of complaining lean on to Him and allow Him to work on you. God loves you so much that He would never allow you to be weak when He can strengthen you. Lean on Him and trust Him to know what is good for you.
This is how much happy I was as God got me through this experience. I even think I got excessively talkative by the end of the week. PS: I was still crying on my way home but this time it was because i was going to miss them and I was thankful to God for giving me the most wonderful experience of my life…..Now you’re in the know Yours Truly FIRE PRINCESS.