Adulting

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I’ve always considered myself very level headed and able to maintain a sober mind during decision making until recently. My parents being away on vacation has taught me a few things but the main lesson I’ve learnt is perspective. Yesterday my baby sister and I went grocery shopping. It was a all fun and laughter, moving from aisle to aisle choosing what we wanted, taking snaps and just enjoying small talk. I noticed that as much as we were not paying attention we bought exactly the same things our parents would get had they been there. We stay away from candy and all unnecessary indulgences and stuck to vegetables and fruits plus other necessities. By the time we got to paying I was in deep thought of how “adult-like” my shopping basket looked. In my mind I was giving myself high-fives because it felt like I had finally figured the concept of adulting. Yes I know that doesn’t sound like a word but to me it is. Adulting is the skill of mastering all acts in life reserved for grown-ups👍😊. I smiled all the way to my car up until a mile away when I noticed my phone was missing.

I freaked out instantly and my mind wondered to worst case scenerios. I called my phone company and they said they couldn’t track it. I started regretting why I had disabled the ‘find my phone’ app. I went back to the store retraced my steps and nada😢😢. All this time my sister was quiet and level headed she was searching ways to find my phone on the web. She was simply a true defination of calm and collected. I gave up and drove us home. As soon as I got home I found a book in the mail about experiencing God in the darkness and instantly I started preaching to myself. I started saying that this was darkness and God was about to let me experience Him and so on and so forth. Here my sister was on the phone talking and after a while she walked up to me and what she said challanged me to the bone. “I just spoke to the store manager they found your phone. I am so dissapointed in you for giving up so fast instead of using your common sense and doing the obvious. Instead of calling the store, you gave up and started a mini series about the devil’s plans. The devil was not the problem here, your foolishness was.” She said as she turned and walked back to the car. 

I spent most of the evening all quiet meditating on that rebuke. While I allowed my perspective to be skewed towards the worst case scenario my sister on the other hand took it as just a simple matter that was easy to resolve. How many times has your perspective made you give up on your dreams or miss an opportunity? Before you make the mistake of blaming the devil make sure that you ain’t the problem.

😊😊Well I am very happy I have my phone back but most of all I’m grateful for the lesson that came out of this incident. 

❤❤Yours❤Fire Princess 

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Thy Word.

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Psalms 119:11 “Thy Word have I hidden in my heart that I may not sin aganist thee.” This words have been stirring in me a hunger for God even in my daily life. Yes I do struggle with sin but I’m encouraged that with God’s Word I can stay away from sin.

By being around people I’ve learnt that ponography is an epidemic. It is a dirty secret in very many people’s closets. It rarely starts in a dramatic way like you might be thinking. It rarely is introduced to you by a pervet friend or abusive relative, most of the time it’s by accident. Simply clicking on the wrong links or from a pop-up on your screen. The first time I ever saw a porn video was actually as I was doing a school assignment and I clicked on a link and the screen was filled with it. At this point I had a choice to look away or to look into it. I choose the latter. I used the excuse of wanting to learn more about sex (as if sex ed was not enough🤔). In that moment I not only fed my curiosity but also my mind and heart. This aroused things in me that I never thought existed. Lust flared in me like a bon fire in dry weather. One peek couldn’t satisfy the beast I had just brought to life in me. I went through each category and watched all different scenes and even bookmarked some for later. Fast forward to a few weeks later the watching turned to watching and masturbation. The seed of lust that I had planted grew beyond anything I could satisfy. Until I decided enough is enough. 

I went to the Bible and allowed God to speak to me. First I reminded myself that my body is God’s temple so it had to be a holy ground. I repented and asked God to forgive me and also to cleanse me. Then I asked God to deliver me from the spirit of lust. The best part was when I started reading the word to myself anytime my mind started to tread back to my previous ways. I can truly atest that the Word has never failed me. It has held me solid till now that I don’t even struggle with the issue. I know by now you are wondering why I had to lay my heart this way✋. I had to assure someone who is struggling in sin that they are not alone and also that there is a way out. I am not the first to be bound neither I’m I going to be the last but from my experience we can learn a few things.(well unless the devil takes a vacation😂) When it gets tough allow God to talk you through it. His word is His voice to you and through it you will be delivered. The word of God is like a double-edged sword, it works for you, with you and aganist your enemies. Don’t allow the devil to win, use the word. Speak like Jesus and say “IT IS WRITTEN” because even the devil knows that Heaven and earth shall pass away but the Word of God shall stand forever.

Yours truly Fire Princess ❤❤