Well our family birthday is here yet again. This is the day my parents said “I do” to each other. This year marks 25yrs of marriage for them meaning our family is 25yrs old. I call it our family birthday because that way I don’t feel left out of the love story😊. Yes I know what you are thinking right now but to answer your question, I am that person who finds an excuse to make a party about them😉. Back to the point here people!! In all those years this one is very special to us as a family and more so to my parents. This silver jubilee came with all sorts of silver linings.
In all these years my parents have never gone on vacation without us. Now they’re in London enjoying their sweet romance. Just so you know this means I’m babysitting or rather teenage-sitting😏. I’m amazed at this love story because rarely do people grow in love. It is so easy to stay in love with someone but actually growing in love with them everyday, every year is phenomenal. They had their chances to go and see the world so many times but they always put us first or someone else but because they always acted as a unit they never fell apart. In 25yrs my mum has supported my dad’s vision of being a pastor in ways that many may never know. She prayed him up, dressed him up and loved him through and through for years. My dad made sure that her dream to be a nurse became a reality. Not because she had to work but because she wanted it. He stayed up with her as she studied, cooked for her, made sure bills were paid, took care of us and still took care of the church.
I know I sound like a hopeless romantic but what I have learned in all these years is that God is love. Those times when we had nothing but each other God never left hence our feelings for each other remained intact. When we failed each other and even tried to strangle each other🙄 God was still there so even in our hate, love abided. 25 years might not seem like alot but to us it has been a journey and to our parents it has been a race.
***PS: If you see my parents in London tell them to stop fretting and calling alot. Also make sure they don’t come back until the vacation is over. I’ll tell you the juicy parts of the 25yrs in the next episode❤❤❤
I never thought I’d sit down and color a book but as soon as I got this one I was hooked. It’s amazing how colors can tell you about yourself. On a good day the colors are beautiful and in sync. On a distressed day the confusion, frustration and all negativity is displayed in the choice of colors. This form of journaling has allowed me to open up more and to be well versed with my inner man. Check out this book and get ready to be changed. It’s also a great way to bond with your kids and the verses in there are great.
Hold up right there! Did you read the title? Now go back and read it again. Good now you think I’ve absolutely lost my mind. I just finished reading thousands of comments off someone’s instagram. I am sweaty, I have heart palpations and I might also be undergoing emotion overload. It started with a meh feeling, then I was laughing, then angry and finally I’m just dissapointed at how much we invest on things that don’t profit us.
This celebrity posted a very vague post, vaguely describing a moment of faliure and in there was also a very generic apology. To me as a regular stalker😊 (Yes I am a certified stalker) this post was just something I would have overlooked. One because his life is non of my buisness apart from the part I enjoy observing their lives and two because his life does not affect mine in any form or manner. As I spent most of my free time (I should have taken a nap instead) reading those comments I noticed that people were so offended and hurt by this man’s action even though he had failed his family and not the public. This got me thinking of how we allow people to have influence over us just because they’re famous. We have actual soul-ties to celebrities who barely care about us. We have attached ourselves to ships that are sailing in the opposite direction of our destined path because that ships looks brighter than your own. I would understand if this person had done something to disrespect others like maybe being racist or sexist or whatever public offence but he was talking about his personal issues. We have integrated ourselves into other people’s lives that even when a family is going through crisis it ruins your life. Some of us the only thing separating you from the Kardashian family is your last name. You already have assigned yourself a place in their house. SMH!
Anyway now that my rant is over and I’ve exposed my stalking tendancies😉 let me drop some wisdom. All that glitters is not gold. Don’t waste time coveting lives of people just because it is displayed perfectly on camera. Use that time and energy to create a life of your own. Don’t get so caught up in other people’s lives that you miss building your own. Remember if you place yourself into my life most probably as I fight my demons they’ll attack you too because you have made yourself a part of me. Be you and when you feel need to see how
other people’s lives are going borrow my stalker glasses. Now go in peace and sin no more😂😂😂 (Okay that last part I’ve been dying to say for a while)
Yours truly Fire Princess ❤❤❤
I was talking with one of my girls a few weeks ago about the kind of man we would like to marry and I noticed something so interesting. We have been friends for many years and as we grew this list changed. At first it was mostly physical and financial qualities that we cared about most, then we got saved and we wanted a God fearing man but now being saved and cute ain’t enough anymore. We just don’t want you to be saved but we want people with a relationship with God. Not a casual relationship where you flirt with God when you’re lonely or when your life is messed up but a full-time committed relationship.
We live in a time where if you put salvation or God fearing as a prerequisite that you will end up with the fools who say “I am spiritual but not religious.” Baby even demons are spiritual, the question is simple “What is your relationship with God? ” Most ladies are busy making a list of how we want a man who can be a priest in our houses but are you a woman enough to serve the priest?
Can you submit to him as you submit to God? Guys can God entrust you with her life? Are you sensitive enough to the Holy Spirit to hear His will for you?
As soon as you think of it this way you will realize that you don’t want just a saved guy or girl. You want a person who knows God and has an outstanding relationship with Him. A person who is okay with seeking God to get to you. A person who God can entrust your future to. A person that can prophesy over you, guide you,pray over you, declare and decree God’s will over your life, love on you unconditionally and protect you. Yes being saved is not enough🤔🤔🤔
Psalms 119:11 “Thy Word have I hidden in my heart that I may not sin aganist thee.” This words have been stirring in me a hunger for God even in my daily life. Yes I do struggle with sin but I’m encouraged that with God’s Word I can stay away from sin.
By being around people I’ve learnt that ponography is an epidemic. It is a dirty secret in very many people’s closets. It rarely starts in a dramatic way like you might be thinking. It rarely is introduced to you by a pervet friend or abusive relative, most of the time it’s by accident. Simply clicking on the wrong links or from a pop-up on your screen. The first time I ever saw a porn video was actually as I was doing a school assignment and I clicked on a link and the screen was filled with it. At this point I had a choice to look away or to look into it. I choose the latter. I used the excuse of wanting to learn more about sex (as if sex ed was not enough🤔). In that moment I not only fed my curiosity but also my mind and heart. This aroused things in me that I never thought existed. Lust flared in me like a bon fire in dry weather. One peek couldn’t satisfy the beast I had just brought to life in me. I went through each category and watched all different scenes and even bookmarked some for later. Fast forward to a few weeks later the watching turned to watching and masturbation. The seed of lust that I had planted grew beyond anything I could satisfy. Until I decided enough is enough.
I went to the Bible and allowed God to speak to me. First I reminded myself that my body is God’s temple so it had to be a holy ground. I repented and asked God to forgive me and also to cleanse me. Then I asked God to deliver me from the spirit of lust. The best part was when I started reading the word to myself anytime my mind started to tread back to my previous ways. I can truly atest that the Word has never failed me. It has held me solid till now that I don’t even struggle with the issue. I know by now you are wondering why I had to lay my heart this way✋. I had to assure someone who is struggling in sin that they are not alone and also that there is a way out. I am not the first to be bound neither I’m I going to be the last but from my experience we can learn a few things.(well unless the devil takes a vacation😂) When it gets tough allow God to talk you through it. His word is His voice to you and through it you will be delivered. The word of God is like a double-edged sword, it works for you, with you and aganist your enemies. Don’t allow the devil to win, use the word. Speak like Jesus and say “IT IS WRITTEN” because even the devil knows that Heaven and earth shall pass away but the Word of God shall stand forever.
Yours truly Fire Princess ❤❤
I hope you are well. I have definitely missed hearing from all of you so hit me up and tell me how life is going on your end. My team and I have come up with a 6 week reset program and I think it is much needed at a time like this. so here goes the details.
For 6 weeks starting September 1st 2017 I will do life with you. Together we will review and tackle every aspect of your life. YES!!! I mean EVERY ASPECT!!!💯💯. I will be dealing with relationships, work, fashion, finances, faith, mentorship and many more😉. In these 6 weeks I will be at your disposal, yeah you can call me, text me and email me any day and any time🤔🤔. This program is reserved for personal 18yrs and above. We have 150 slots and the first 100 are free. To register go to my home page and hit the contact me button. In not more than 300 hundred words tell me why you think you need the program. I am excited to do this with you.❤
My God is a consistent God. He is the same yesterday, today and forever, He changes not. This similar concept is expected of me as His child. God expects NO! Scratch that He DEMANDS only one character trait from us throughout and that is holiness. However, most of us have misconstrued consistency to stagnation. We are okay with just being okay because we view our current situation as God’s plan for our lives. Most of us have limited destiny to the place in our lives where our ability ceased. “I was fired from that job but I can still pay my bills somehow so this must be God’s plan for this season” mmmh🤔 How many times have you limited God to just enough? Just because it relieves the itch doesn’t mean it’s all you deserve. Some of us are stuck in a series of bad situations not because God has not heard your cry or even delivered you but because we are comfortable in this moments. Psalms 23 the Bible talks about the good Shepherd whose work is to guide us through different seasons of our lives (green pastures, still waters, valley of the shadow of death..) This means that God expects movement from us. Progression from darkness to light, from mountains to valleys etc. depending on what God has for you in that season.
A while back I found myself questioning God about my purpose and what He wanted me to do. I’m sure all of you have been at that point where you knew God was doing something in you but had no idea what it was. That exactly was my predicament but what was really bothering me was the fact that God was pushing me out of my comfort zone. God was putting me in positions that I probably would avoid for the rest of my life. It took me a while to surrender to God and let Him use me however He pleased and trust me when I say that was the key to my greatest breakthroughs. When I allowed myself to be progressive with God I started to witness just how great of a Father He is. He takes care of my insecurities and makes sure that before He takes me from still waters to valley of the shadow of death I’m ready. Allowing yourself to be vulnerable and open to God’s will opens a door for Him to use you fully without any hindrances. Unlocking your potential is only possible when you take the first step. I understand it’s scary to give up full control to God but it is worth every single experience. Don’t let the devil lure you into the illusion that you are the best version of you right now because if God was done with you you’d be dead. You messed up, so what? His grace is sufficient, get up honey, repent and move on. When your insecurities and fears start to minister to your mind speak the word of God to them. Tell them who God says you are. All God needs from your character is holiness. Act right and keep moving with Jesus.
Take Away: Look into your life and identify the part of you that ain’t progressive then allow God to work on you. Can’t wawait to hear your testimonies. #Fireprincess
Often times when I go through seasons in my life that leave me feeling shattered I always do something wild to seal the memory. Last time this happened I cut my hair and minus looking very scary my dad was very mad about it. For the last few weeks I have had similar or more complex moments and I have learnt a lot that I thought I should share. Stay tuned and you just might see what wild card I played this time.
Like me most people thrive in a one man team. This does not mean that we are better alone it just means that we use the energy of the people around us but are sufficient to work by ourselves. Most people have misconstrued this character trait. No one is ever going to be able to flourish to their maximum potential alone. I was amazed when I read God’s response to the people building the tower of Babel in Genesis 11 vs 6
And the Lord said, “Indeed the people are one and they all have one language, and this is what they begin to do; now nothing that they propose to do will be withheld from them.
This is a very profound statement that depicts what people can do when they come together in one accord. Most if not all of us already know this even from the secular aspect of life we say “No man is an island” but what hinders us from allowing people into our lives enough for us to be blessed by them and vice versa? Let me introduce to you the T word, TRUST. We live life as if we have a target on our backs and everyone is dealing arrows and bullets our way to kill us. Today allow me to burst your bubble and tell you this, you will never reach your destiny alone. It doesn’t matter how attached you are to God or how spiritual you are but we are designed as team players. Look at Jesus, He was the son of God but yet had disciples to help Him in His ministry. I’m not saying people hold your destiny but they open your eyes to it. People see you very differently from how you see yourself and so through them you can see a side of you that you couldn’t discover alone. A different perspective.
Most of us have labeled ourselves with what we call trust issues but really what we have is fear. Fear of betrayal, hurt, commitment, failure, disappointment etc. We have let fear delay us from attaining that which God has placed in our path. The bible actually says God has NOT given us a spirit of fear but of LOVE, POWER and SOUND MIND. Drop this fear and take a leap of faith today. Embrace the Love of Jesus Christ, the Power of the Holy Spirit and use the Sound mind given to you by God. Hurt disappointment, betrayal and all these things we are afraid of are just lessons and low moments in our journey but God has promised in Psalms 23 to be with us in the valley of the shadow of death. Stop limiting God’s capability to protect your feelings and thoughts in the name of guarding your heart. Lastly ask for wisdom to identify the wolves so that as you put yourselves out there you will not fall prey to them.
CHALLENGE FOR THE WEEK: Take a leap of faith and trust again. Make a new friend, go on a date, join a group you always wanted to. Do anything that tries your trust. Cant wait to read all your stories and feedback.
My wild card was red hair 😍😍
Fire Princess ❤❤
As I was growing up I thought he was a superhero, you know another version of superman. He was always able to fix everything that was wrong and even when people were not nice to us I always knew that if I had him on my side all would be well. My dad has never allowed anything to stop him from loving us. When I was young probably three years old his mum and sisters were not fond of my mum and so this day after my dad left they came and insulted her a lot. When my dad came and heard what happened he was so angry that he fought everyone until my grandpa had to stop him and call a family meeting. When everyone was settled down in my grandma’s house, my dad lifted me and put me on the table and said to me “Rudia nyuma yangu (say this after me) kutoka leo hatutawai rudi huku tena ata shida itupate hatutawai rudi huku tena amen. (from today we will never come back here even if problems come our way amen) I repeated the declaration and after I was done he said to them that we would never come back until they realized that my mother was there to stay and they were ready to respect her. At that time this words sounded just like a funny declaration but now I do see the magnitude of it all. My dad was ready to leave his family because we came first to him. (don’t worry I’ll tell you what happened in another edition but we stayed away from them for close to a year) The reason that I started with that glimpse is that now that it is father’s day I’m not even sure how to appreciate my dad. He is the gift that God delivered to me and even though he is not covered in glitter his actions shine. There is no school to learn how to be a dad but if you are not one already you might want to learn a few things from my dad and if you already are a dad stay tuned for a refresher course.
One day my brother and I went out for a concert until past our curfew. We had a well planned lie but too bad my dad already knew where we were. We walked into the house with our rehearsed lies and went ahead to narrate it to my dad and he was quiet and we thought he bought it. When we were about to walk away he said “come and take my shoes from here and put the away” We both walked back towards him and no sooner had we bent down than we fell down like we had been electrocuted. He had this well curved cane right at his feet and he had just hit us simultaneously. Trust me when I tell you that it was so painful that I felt like my whole body was on fire but that was just but the beginning. He gave us a few more hits before the truth was flowing out of us like a water from a fountain. We even confessed mistakes from months before. Oh all week in school our sore bodies turned us to the best students ever. All I’m saying is a dad should be a disciplinarian and also able to call it when his kids are lying(this takes skill and full knowledge of your kids)
A dad takes his children side even if all the evidence shows that the kid is guilty. In what I like to call my past life😉😉, I orchestrated a strike in my school. Everyone from the student, teachers, school board and even villagers knew and said it was me but my dad defended me until everyone started doubting their conviction. I was suspended and when I went home my dad was angry and I was disciplined but when it was time to go back to school he defended me every step of the way. I went into the board and council of elders(this by itself can tell you how much serious trouble I was in) and as soon as we walked in my dad told them “My daughter is the best child you will ever have and you losing her will be such a down fall to this school. She has shown that she has influence and you wouldn’t want her to not be on your side. She believes in God and so if she really did something it means it really had to be done so if you punish her it will seem you are fighting God’s good
work” I was about to burst out laughing when one of them said ” we are so sorry we never looked at it that way and yes she can come back we wouldn’t want her against us” I was so excited even though I was indeed guilty. This action to me as a child gave me security because I knew that even if it was the world against me I had all I needed a great warrior, my dad. (Just so you know he really did whip my behind for being that reckless)
A dad should always show up. My siblings and I are the type of children that join all clubs in school. My dad shows up to everything from horrible rehearsals to all the games we lost. He cheers us on and even makes up really bad sounding songs but all to show us support. A great dad should love his kids mother and treat her well. My dad and mum are best friends and their relationship has taught how to related with each other and even with others. I know that not many families will ever get to the place that we are in because not many people like the work but trust me it is worth it. The world might crumble by my side but the foundation of my family keeps me steady.
Today as we celebrate our fathers keep these few things in mind. Celebrate your dad always not because they might die one day but because appreciation is just an encouragement to show them they are doing right. As a woman even if you are capable of doing it all by yourself never deny your children the chance of having a dad. A dad is not the money, provision or even the soccer games a dad is a presence and you cannot do it as a woman. For those whose biological dads are not with us anymore, look keenly around you God has placed men there to embrace you and it is up to you to walk into that blessing. I believe in my heart of hearts that God never leaves voids in our life. For those who are planning to be dads, trust me it is a very hard job especially if your kids are like my siblings and I but it is so worth it. For those that are dads already, up your game. Be priests, prophets and kings to your children but don’t forget to be clowns, friends, cheerleaders and defenders. I believe that my dad is the best dad in the universe but you can all work hard to be second best.
Happy fathers’ day to you all amazing dads. Feel free to share your great dad experiences with me on the comments or on my email. i’d like to hear from you.
A while back my dad, brother and I went to a conference. I was to be in the worship team and so I travelled a day before them to catch up with rehearsals and stuff. One I was so tiered because I caught my flight right after work and two I was so worried because I was about to work with a team of strangers for a whole week. This was a great opportunity for me but I was not excited about it, I was actually dreading it. Was I going to dress as expected? were they going to like me? would I sound right or would I just freeze up when the moment came? All these questions got me so riled up that I was just on edge. I couldn’t even sleep in my flight and this time not because I was scared but worry kept me up. By the time my flight landed I was more tiered because my brain was overworking and my body was just worn out but I had to make it for the rehearsals in an hour. I stood in the middle of the noisy airport and started praying and I asked God for one thing a SURPRISE!! I put on my earphones and started worshipping God because if all went bad I wanted to have something to hold on to. When my hotel shuttle arrived the driver was just a ray of sunshine, he was so hilarious and had me cracking in no time. We made small talk about the weather and every simple thing strangers would talk about but by the time I got to the hotel I was in a totally different mood and ready to conquer a few more hours before sleep. I checked in and as I walked to the elevator one of the team leaders was coming out of it. I knew her from all the communications we had had before this day but she had no idea who I was. Out of the blue this wonderful lady walked up to me and just embraced me as if we were friends who had not seen each other in ages and then she smiled and said welcome and she walked away. I raced into the elevator and my heart was racing from joy and wonder. I freshened up then sat down on my bed and asked God to help me out because I was about to go meet close to fifty strangers who may or may not like me. I never even know I cared what people thought about me until this time. Funny how God uses such moments to show us our weak points. I walked into the hall we were supposed to meet and the technical team was still working to get the sound system up and running. I saw the lady I had met standing at corner with so I decided to go introduce myself . The four ladies were all so nice and in a few minutes we were deep into stories I was at peace and it felt like I had made friends. This was different for me because I am not used to people being selflessly nice apart from my family so this whole thing was so foreign. I am definitely a talkative woman but only my family and friends bring out this side of me but with everyone else I am reserved that some would label me antisocial. I looked at my watch and it was two hours already and more people had come but everyone was good. We decided to have dinner before anything and one lady readily wanted to go with me. By this time I was already too suspicious of everyone for being too nice that I started making excuses of not going with her but she was having none of that. We went to dinner and conversation flowed with so much ease that by the time it was over I was convinced that she was indeed a nice person. When rehearsal started I was too overwhelmed by all this, that it was all a blur (I was probably singing like a strangled cow but I was beyond caring)
The next day I decided to wait and see if the first day was just pretense only to find it was just a taste. These people were so good that I found myself wanting to just be around them and get ‘infected’ with this goodness. Day two of the conference I was so overwhelmed by how God had decided to SURPRISE me. Tears were flowing all day because God had just shown me that people would be nice without expecting anything in return. That in these world there are people who are good just because. I cried when we were praying, I cried when people smiled at me and worse I cried when they all complimented how beautiful I was or how well I did my make up( thank God for waterproof make up) Thank God for the Holy Spirit because I think everyone thought I was just so drowned in God’s presence that’s why I was crying. Yes by the end of the week I just wanted to pack this bunch of people and take them home!!! That sounds like a scene that would fit in criminal minds so I refrained myself from it. A group that prays for you and with you, laughs with you and makes you laugh, bring out the beauty and glow from deep within you is more than I had asked from God but He indeed surprised me. This reminds me of Sinach’s song He did it again she says; “I am counting my blessings. I can’t keep it to myself, when I thought He had done too much, ooh, Jesus did it again.” This is the song I am dancing to because God indeed went beyond what I even asked for. I even shared meals with them and considering how wiered i get about food (only foodies like me get this) I was very okay with it.
I learned two things in this experience. One not everyone is a vampire ready to suck your blood(I hope you have that image in your head, you’ll need it) When you fail to trust people because someone hurt you or just because you have trust issues you miss on opportunities and connections because you are too busy trying to miss non existent bullets. I would not have had the extent of breakthrough I had in that conference if I allowed my already existing walls to stay in place. I know people say trust is earned but my new view is trust is offered until someone proves otherwise. Two, just when you think you have yourself figured out God will expose your weak points so as to strengthen you. God is consistent but He is also progressive and He demands the same from us. He wants us to grow and become better. When God lets you into a vulnerable situation instead of complaining lean on to Him and allow Him to work on you. God loves you so much that He would never allow you to be weak when He can strengthen you. Lean on Him and trust Him to know what is good for you.
This is how much happy I was as God got me through this experience. I even think I got excessively talkative by the end of the week. PS: I was still crying on my way home but this time it was because i was going to miss them and I was thankful to God for giving me the most wonderful experience of my life…..Now you’re in the know Yours Truly FIRE PRINCESS.